So, I started this screenplay before I finished getting my MFA and I hadn’t worked on it in 2 years until I finally finished my first draft in November 2015. Now, I made a goal to get my first draft finished by the end of December which then became the end of January which has now became the end of February.
I have changed the first 5 pages but now my brain is all over the place. I start thinking about what if this ending would work better or this one and new characters and new relationships which has caused a complete writing standstill. I worked my butt off to go from 35 pages to 137 by the end of November and now I can’t go past the 5 pages I’ve already worked on.
I’ve received advice that I should just write and fix it after it’s done but I’ve already done the editing and now I have to fix it and it feels like I am being ripped apart from my own ideas. I love the idea for my story. I love the twists and even the relationships because as I got further in, they wrote themselves but now I have to re introduce myself to these characters and meet new ones.
It took 2 years to even force myself to finish it and I can’t do that again if I really want this to be my career and move past my current profession into something I love. I love movies and discussing them, criticizing ones that are predictable or unoriginal (mostly remakes although some are excellent). I do the same thing with TV shows and I want to put myself out there among these things. I want to have people go to the movie I wrote and (hopefully) enjoy it but writing it has been a real bitch!